Husband is doing well, I think. He had his counseling session earlier this week. It's good and bad after he goes. He is always more helpful around the house (he's a huge help anyway) and with our daughter. But he also pushes more for me to talk about things. His standard phrase, "What else is new?" I try hard to open up somewhat and I've done better but he just doesn't get that there are some things I'm not going to talk about with him - or anyone really. He also tries to be more affectionate. I'm fine with hugs. I like hugs. But not grab me and squeeze the breath out of me hugs. Not come up behind me hugs. And NOT lying in bed, try to snuggle from behind, put your hand on my neck hugs. UGH - he knows that. Why does he do it? Then he gets mad when I jump or kick at him. He says his actions are automatic. Well, I think he should try harder. But if his actions are automatic, then so are my reactions - so get over the fact that I "reacted" to your grabbing by kicking and elbowing you this morning.
Daughter is great. We put up her pool last night and it was fun to see her get so much enjoyment out of playing in it. Husband is gone tonight playing golf with some church friends. So Daughter and I are having "girl time." I think we'll hang out in the backyard and just swim a bit and chill.
I'm jumpy today. Starting with my husband triggering me this morning. Then at the gym I got engrossed in a magazine and wasn't paying attention to who was around me or behind me. Another person came up and tapped me on the shoulder and said, "studying really important stuff there?" I know him fairly well and we usually say hi and joke back and forth. But it just startled me. I'm usually more aware of my surroundings and don't leave much opportunity to sneak up on me. I jumped and almost fell off my elliptical machine.
Still jumpy and edgy. Just need to make it through the work day.....although work is somewhat safer than being at home alone too.....