Last night I was tucking my daughter into bed. I had gotten her night light plugged in, fan on, music on, covers all arranged and laid out two storybooks and her Bible devotional. I sat down sideways on her bed, with a pillow behind me, while I waited for her to gather all her stuffed animals and dolls and arrange them "just so." I put her Dora pillow next to me and patted it for her to sit down next to me while I read to her. She shook her head and said "No. I want to sit in your lap." So I moved the books off my lap and pulled her to me. She wiggled around and got comfy and grabbed her blanket. Leaned back and said "I like snuggles. It's fun." We read our Bible devotional, talked about our day and said our prayers. I tucked her head under my chin and breathed in that special scent of her clean, grape scented hair and relished the moment.
We then read "I Love you Always" which is a book where various baby animals ask their mommies and daddies, "Why am I special?" The mommies and daddies respond with something unique about their baby and end with "and you are special and we will love you forever and always." When I finished reading, I tucked her in, kissed her and said "I love you always and forever." She smiled and said "Me too."
I love moments like that. I store them up and treasure them in my heart. I hope my daughter will always find my lap "fun" and enjoy "snuggles." I know I always will.
A few weeks ago I was asked by T to think of a second safe place. Drawing a blank here. I like my "lying on a raft, drifting in the water" feeling. I've thought about the time on vacation when I climbed up in the lifeguard stand and watched the sunrise. But that just wasn't quite working for me. Last night, something flashed in my head when I was reading to my daughter. Couldn't quite put it together though. Then this morning I remembered that I had written about a mother's lap awhile back on here. Found my post from February 2007 (Lap - part one). I'm wondering if my second safe place has to be an actual place. Because this lap thing is sounding appealing to me. I'm wondering if it will work?