I hadn't realized that today was the 45 day mark. After struggling yesterday so badly, it was nice to count the days and come to that realization. One struggle yesterday was the fact that every time I opened a desk drawer, there was something SI-related there.
I committed to throwing all SI-related stuff away at 60 days. A commitment to myself. However, today it was time to get rid of the stuff in my desk. So into a plastic bag went razors, safety pins, quilters' pins, straight pins, bandaids, and antibiotic cream. I did have a large moment of panic as I walked down the stairs to my car. But it went in - as evidenced here -
(note white bag going into dumpster - great photo capture if you ask me - lol)
Afterwards, per someone's suggestion, I treated myself. I am now enjoying a large white chocolate mocha frappucino with a chocolate chocolate-chip muffin (a girl can't have too much chocolate!). I feel relieved. A tad uneasy, but mostly relieved.
(hmm, 3rd post of the day - for a girl who can't verbalize outloud, I sure have no problem blabbing in writing)