I'm pissed off. I'm mad because of all the crap I went through yesterday only to find out he's doing fine. In fact, they're taking him off the vent today and he is responding to sounds and stuff. He'll be home in a few days. If I have to go through all that turmoil, he ought to have died.
I'm pissed because I'm getting ignored by some relatives. Once again, Mom and her husband are the chosen ones. Ignore my pregnancy news to focus on her. She's the one who chose him. It's her own fault she's alone there.
I'm pissed because of the emails other relatives are sending - like this - "Hurting for your MOM right now, wishing I could be there for moral support & to give her lots of HUGS. Glad Aunt could go & be with her." Emails that imply I should be there with her.
I'm really resisting firing off a nasty email back - "Mom is alone at the hospital because she chose her evil, child molesting, abusive pervert husband over her children. She deserves to be alone. He deserves to die alone. He deserves to suffer long and hard and die alone. No one wants to see him. His own mother chose to live with his ex-wife rather than him. His children have nothing to do with him. His sister cut off all contact with him. Mom and he are finally facing the consequences of their actions. And no I will not go be with her."
Okay, I give myself a 10 for expressing anger. Deduct 5 points for the fact that I now feel guilty for berating a man in the hospital and his wife. Deduct 5 points for the panic attack I have now induced. Leaving me at zero. Shit, I hate this.