Yesterday I received a call from a colleague about a job opening in my county. It is for a staff attorney position with the county. It would mean a pay increase, set hours, no billable hours, better insurance and great benefits.
Yet, I like my job. I like my office. I like the work I do. I'm not sure I'd like the new type of work.
Yet, I'm caught between staying in a job where I might enjoy the work more versus taking a job that would really benefit my family more.
This is really raising the panic levels in me. I feel obligated to stay in my current position. They took a chance on me. They have invested time in me. They allowed me to delay partnership. Yet, I'm not sure how much longer they will keep me at my current associate position. I'm not sure that I'll ever see a raise, and I've only ever made my bonus once in eight years.
My mother put her job above her family. She put money above the welfare of my sister and I. So I don't want to let the pay increase sway me. Yet, I also don't want to reject a job where the hours would be so much better, even if I might not really like the job. I want to be different than my mother, but I can't make a decision opposite of what she might make, just to make a point. It might not be the right decision. My head is spinning and the +/- charts aren't helping.
There is the fact that I love the people I work with. It really is a family. I'd miss them.
But the lack of pressure. No billables. I would have to probably punch in and out and keep more routine hours. But 8-5 with lunch, instead of 7 - 5 with no lunch. Monday through Friday, instead of weekends and evenings too. And I would get 2 weeks vacation and 12 sick days a year.
The commute would be longer. We moved here, in part, to avoid the 20 minute commute. I'd be back to that commute. We moved here in part so that we'd be close in proximity to our children's school, making lunch visits and volunteering easy. A job change would not make that feasible.
The job wouldn't be as intellectually stimulating as I'd like. However, I would have time to pursue other interests, like writing. The job does entail some teaching which is attractive.
I'm working on my resume. I think I'll apply and see what happens and pray I don't burn bridges as I explore options.