I did it - part way. It's a good start. I spoke with the head of the agency several times. I called the person whose position I interviewed for (she made a lateral transfer to another position). I got a feel for the daily job requirements. I spoke to another attorney at the agency. I spoke with church members, two other attorneys, and friends. Of course my husband and I talked extensively. I prayed a lot.
Today I went for my background check and drug screen. I also negotiated a later start date. I'll not be immediately eligible for vacation so I want to take a long weekend to go see my Sister before starting.
Oh, did I forget to mention? I TOOK THE JOB !!!!!!!!!!!
I've gone from elation and excitement to sadness and panic.
Today I went and spoke to the senior partner - my mentor. The one who is the only other attorney who really does what I do. I was panicked. I was having major anxiety attacks. But......he took it so well. He asked me about the offer and admitted the firm can't match it. He told me that he enjoyed working with me and thought I was a great attorney but he absolutely understands why I'm taking it. Great meeting. I'll tell the rest of the firm on Monday.
I then told my assistant. She cried. It broke my heart. She is thinking of leaving too. She said she wanted to come with me and asked if I could find her a position there. It really makes me feel good that someone respects what I do and likes me enough to want to come with me. I hate to upset her. It made me upset. But I know I have to do what is best for me and my family.
I got to see my new office. It's smaller than my current one and not as nice. I actually expected worse given that it is a government building. But it's a decent size. Furniture looks comfy. And...it has a door and two windows. Yeah. That makes it lovely.
The other plus is that I found out I can have flex time. That means if my Daughter has T-ball on Tuesdays, I can arrange to leave early on Tuesdays and make it up later in the week. Wow! How awesome.
On the drive home today, I received a phone call and was talking about the job. My daughter was in the car and asked about it. She wanted to know why I was switching. Without hesitation I told her that she, her brother and her daddy are the most important things in the world to me. I said, "I want to be able to eat lunch with you at school, go to your events, be home with you, help you with your homework and have more time with you." She said, "With me? Yeah! I like that Mommy." That makes it all worthwhile.
I'm not looking forward to Monday morning. But I feel good about this.